I recently read an article related to High Functioning Anxiety and it really hit home for me in a lot of areas. Most days I am fine and have learned ways to function even though I just want to crawl into a safe space and block everyone out. However, when I am hit with something like bad news or even good news, it throws me off of my routine. I thrive on routine to just make it through most days. So when other things with my health start to go awry, I can’t life. Period. I try really fucking hard. And I feel like a failure when I cannot just put that one foot in front of the other. I feel this immense pressure to appear normal, when I really just need a fucking day off to process my thoughts and mentally prepare myself to get back on that routine. It really is a lot sometimes. I hate that I was just getting to a point where I was relaxed and I have to rewire and rework my brain again to realize that I am safe and it’s going to be ok, no matter what.